Time Travel

What if i had a wish, one wish to be made?
I would wish for time travel. Don't think of me as a freak. But, i do want to time travel.
I want to go back to a time, when my heart was at peace, and the only thing that i cared about was what was i going go have for my next meal.
I want to go back to that time, and talk to myself.
You may wonder why should i waste a boon just to talk to myself. I can do it anytime.
But, some of us don't realise that the most important talk is talking to oneself.
I want to go back to that time, and when i look at him, and think about how great he is, i want to hit the past myself with something i can get hold of, and give a huge hit on the head, and say 'Forget it!'
Whenever my heart flutters because of his so good character, i want to give a huge slap to myself, and say 'Don't you dare!'
And when i finally fall for him, i want to kill the stupid smile i am wearing on my face, and say, 'You are so dead!'
By talking to myself, i can be not so miserable, as i am right now.
If the Heavens are so merciful to bless me with a greater boon, i demand to unsee him.
There may not be such a word, and if it is even remotely possible, i would plead to erase the memories of him, his smile, his awkwardness, his boyishness, his goodness, and along with the memories of him, my happiness, my pain, my dreams, my insomnia, my excessive appetite, my sleep, my anorexia, my obsession and to shorten it for you, in a single word, 'me'.