This day, last year

You never know what will trigger your memory, and how deep you will be affected.
A simple song.
It was a tiresome day, and when I got to rest, music was a blessing. For a few minutes, the soul was relaxed, and when it was about to enter the zenith, a memory was triggered.
I remembered the days that I used to hear the song in repeat mode.
You don't have to imagine an old lady, remembering a song that came a few decades ago.
No.
Clear off that image. It is nothing but relevant.
The time I mentioned was nothing but an year ago. Just an year ago. Exactly.
And, the next thing I remembered was how happy I was!
Yes. Happiness.
And that was because I was not in love then, like I am now. Madly and deeply. That is what all those cinemas show you.
But, to be true to myself, it is true, with more implication on the word 'mad'.
I was happy, and contented.
Now, I am not happy and I have a deep longing for you. A longing that slowly developed into something stronger and lovelier, but the most painful.
Now, I am leaving.
Leaving the place and all. But, you know what is the thing that I am saddened about leaving? You.
Only you.
I have never had many attachments to people or place. And, I have been detesting the last few days.
And now, I am looking at the last day.
My last day of happiness or pain? I am not certain myself. How can u ask you?
You are just oblivious to everything. To me and my love.
And, I have to leave. I will be made to leave.
I don't have any other option to stay further. If it had been love from your side too, I would have turned heaven into hell to stay by your side.
But, that is not the matter.
It had always been nothing from your side.
And, I have had the load for a very long time.
And my soul seeks a sound sleep, a happy day. And it is happy, thinking that I will get all of that by leaving.
Joke if the year, isn't it?
It doesn't know that I have lost my soul when I fell in love with you, and by leaving you, I am leaving a part of me beside you.
The sad part is that my soul will forever be seeking a place in you.