This day, last year

You never know what will trigger your memory, and how deep you will be affected.
A simple song.
It was a tiresome day, and when I got to rest, music was a blessing. For a few minutes, the soul was relaxed, and when it was about to enter the zenith, a memory was triggered.
I remembered the days that I used to hear the song in repeat mode.
You don't have to imagine an old lady, remembering a song that came a few decades ago.
No.
Clear off that image. It is nothing but relevant.
The time I mentioned was nothing but an year ago. Just an year ago. Exactly.
And, the next thing I remembered was how happy I was!
Yes. Happiness.
And that was because I was not in love then, like I am now. Madly and deeply. That is what all those cinemas show you.
But, to be true to myself, it is true, with more implication on the word 'mad'.
I was happy, and contented.
Now, I am not happy and I have a deep longing for you. A longing that slowly developed into something stronger and lovelier, but the most painful.
Now, I am leaving.
Leaving the place and all. But, you know what is the thing that I am saddened about leaving? You.
Only you.
I have never had many attachments to people or place. And, I have been detesting the last few days.
And now, I am looking at the last day.
My last day of happiness or pain? I am not certain myself. How can u ask you?
You are just oblivious to everything. To me and my love.
And, I have to leave. I will be made to leave.
I don't have any other option to stay further. If it had been love from your side too, I would have turned heaven into hell to stay by your side.
But, that is not the matter.
It had always been nothing from your side.
And, I have had the load for a very long time.
And my soul seeks a sound sleep, a happy day. And it is happy, thinking that I will get all of that by leaving.
Joke if the year, isn't it?
It doesn't know that I have lost my soul when I fell in love with you, and by leaving you, I am leaving a part of me beside you.
The sad part is that my soul will forever be seeking a place in you.

Time Travel

What if i had a wish, one wish to be made?
I would wish for time travel. Don't think of me as a freak. But, i do want to time travel.
I want to go back to a time, when my heart was at peace, and the only thing that i cared about was what was i going go have for my next meal.
I want to go back to that time, and talk to myself.
You may wonder why should i waste a boon just to talk to myself. I can do it anytime.
But, some of us don't realise that the most important talk is talking to oneself.
I want to go back to that time, and when i look at him, and think about how great he is, i want to hit the past myself with something i can get hold of, and give a huge hit on the head, and say 'Forget it!'
Whenever my heart flutters because of his so good character, i want to give a huge slap to myself, and say 'Don't you dare!'
And when i finally fall for him, i want to kill the stupid smile i am wearing on my face, and say, 'You are so dead!'
By talking to myself, i can be not so miserable, as i am right now.
If the Heavens are so merciful to bless me with a greater boon, i demand to unsee him.
There may not be such a word, and if it is even remotely possible, i would plead to erase the memories of him, his smile, his awkwardness, his boyishness, his goodness, and along with the memories of him, my happiness, my pain, my dreams, my insomnia, my excessive appetite, my sleep, my anorexia, my obsession and to shorten it for you, in a single word, 'me'.